Receive a weird mail again today. Its from the 'bird' i called friend. Im not sure whether the 'bird' is a friend or foe. For what it is, i'd say thanks to it first due to it i am able to kow what's going on and i really hate it due to how broken my heart is when i saw every content in that mail.
I know...you have explain it to me many2 times. But still whether to be believe you or not, i cant say it yet. There is no solid proof to it. I did want to see the thing you have talked about, the thing that put all this together..but i do pity her...despite everything you or her have done to me.Compassion still no 1 to me. Its not very nice to drop some more gasoline into the fire..i'd rather put it to sleep..eventhough my heart stll ache with questions. I wanted to asked you do you really have me in your heart while you were holding her? is all the love remarks and pictures are true feelings of yours towards her? is all the words came from you is true? was it all just genuinely just helping a friend????
I dont know...from what i feel is betrayed and fooled by you. As we are going to take the next step in our relationship..im still in doubt..on what you still have under your sleeve that i did not know. Im very much in realm of doubt now. No wonder i see pictures of you and her in your computer last time. You still remember the situation? I wanted to swallow it all down my troat, but i dont want to hurt myself..i still love me very much to be treated in such a way. You truely dont know me when you did this.
If tell this story to anyone, a very normal human being..they will not believe this story you have told me. They will say, you are mere trying to escape the mistakes that you do. But i do believe you, why? because i love you and i wanted to forgive and forget. But still....its hard for me to forget this ever happen.
Enough said...If the Little Bird chirped again....I WILL SHUT IT OFF...
Imagine this IPhone is my Heart..yeap..you've broken it :)
IceMintTea
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