Mending

How to forgive if you cant forget?

            This is the main concern of me now. You cant possibly understand what ive been through. Hati i dah merajuk dengan you. Susah nak repair balik. Bukan senang macam repair internet connection dekat Local Area Connection Status. Click jer on repair and its mended. I wish it was that easy.

           Hit after hit kena kat hati ni. Walaupun u in denial yang you are still the good samaritan who try to help the damsell in distress tu. But without hesitation, you buat benda2 tu semua.Susah nak swallow menda ni sebenarnye. I tak penah buat kat you, thats why i felt so unfair. I tau u takkan admit yang you salah, you were just tyring to help orang yg susah.

           But still, have you ever think about me when you buat menda2 tuh? Bila u cakap sayang kat die, do you think bout me? Thats why i tak nak you panggil i sayang lagi sebab sayang tu dah jadi macam benda biasa bagi you. I dont feel like its special anymore. You panggil la i lempeng ke, kipas ke, meja ke, for what i care.

          If the person worth all this, then you should bare menda2 ni semua k? Sbelum you buat you tak fikir yang you dah letakkan relationship kita as the big stake. You tak takot ke yang u might just loose me or the relationship? Nape la you wat camtu? For the person...you sanggup kan?

          You penah tanye ape lagi yang perlu u buat kat i...the answer is nothing. U takyah nak wat ape2 pon. Its just me. With whats left with my heart, i try to mend it..and mend it...and mend it again..until hati i kuat lagi...


Still merajuk lagi....Tak tau la sampai bila.